but I don't feel like talking about it
and yet Eli is on a record breaking stretch of not needing sleep and so I, even though I do need sleep, am sitting here by my computer thinking about any number of stressful things...
like the fact that we need to make some big decisions fast... like, mmmm, where will we be living this time next month? ...and should we move to the big scary city or hold out for the bigger and scarier?
like the fact that I didn't respond when someone said something about someone and I thought something should be said and I didn't want to say it because I wondered if I was wrong.
like the fact that... (oh yeah, I can't say that...)
like the fact that Eli hasn't slept more than 20 minutes straight since 7 this morning. (Oh yeah, I already said that...)
like the fact that.... sssshhhhh! He is sleeping now. bye!
Thursday, May 26, 2005
Sunday, May 22, 2005
Hunger
I am hungry
even though I have just eaten
and my fridge is full and I have money in the bank
to buy more food.
and though I eat
I do not ever feel satisfied
and it embarrases me to admit this
but I have thrown out leftovers
just because I did not feel like eating
the same thing
two days in a row
even though I have just eaten
and my fridge is full and I have money in the bank
to buy more food.
and though I eat
I do not ever feel satisfied
and it embarrases me to admit this
but I have thrown out leftovers
just because I did not feel like eating
the same thing
two days in a row
Monday, May 09, 2005
Odd things on my To-Do List...
-Write an article about the socio-economic role of laundry in society.
-Knit dishclothes with the two rolls of funky wool I bought last Christmas
-Make a grandma maisie doll and a saltspring suzie doll (sorry to all the others who I dearly love but who I have not been inspired yet to make dolls for...)
-Send money to friends (sorry to all the others who we dearly love but who we have not been inspired to send money to...)
-Consider how I could use my life experience to be a mentor to young women. (Doesn't that sound like a cool ministry to be in???)
and of course...
-Taxi Matthew and Jonathan from baseball practice to Lacrosse to Music lessons and youth group and friend's houses, etc... etc... etc... fitting in volunteer work, lunches, coffees and short visits with friends whenever possible.
and...
-Remind myself every day that the verse (Ephesians 6:10) "Be Strong in the Lord and in His mighty power" does not say simply Be Strong (which I try to often on my own to be) but rather to be strong in the Lord. Big Difference!
-Knit dishclothes with the two rolls of funky wool I bought last Christmas
-Make a grandma maisie doll and a saltspring suzie doll (sorry to all the others who I dearly love but who I have not been inspired yet to make dolls for...)
-Send money to friends (sorry to all the others who we dearly love but who we have not been inspired to send money to...)
-Consider how I could use my life experience to be a mentor to young women. (Doesn't that sound like a cool ministry to be in???)
and of course...
-Taxi Matthew and Jonathan from baseball practice to Lacrosse to Music lessons and youth group and friend's houses, etc... etc... etc... fitting in volunteer work, lunches, coffees and short visits with friends whenever possible.
and...
-Remind myself every day that the verse (Ephesians 6:10) "Be Strong in the Lord and in His mighty power" does not say simply Be Strong (which I try to often on my own to be) but rather to be strong in the Lord. Big Difference!
Friday, May 06, 2005
Today I...
...walked to my favourite coffee shop with my husband
...read the Times Colonist, three pages of the book "Hello I'm Special" and one article in The Walrus.
...watched National Treasure at my co-op community centre. I feel like movie night is a big success even though this month we had four out of forty families participating instead of last months three. I can't figure out why our co-op has such a small turn out for organized events. I thought that part of the reason people joined housing co-ops was for the community, but I guess they are really just busy people looking for cheap housing!
...had tea with my friend Julie.
...watched Matthew's Lacrosse practice.
...thought more about how much I love living in this city and thought even more about what it would be like to live in a similar city that is only a ferry ride away.
...and I won a contest that I forgot I entered! I won a box of children's books from Cadboro Bay Books. Lucky Me!
...hoped that winning this box of children's books would inspire me to become the world famous, slightly neurotic but rich and well loved children's book writer that I have always wanted to be.
...read the Times Colonist, three pages of the book "Hello I'm Special" and one article in The Walrus.
...watched National Treasure at my co-op community centre. I feel like movie night is a big success even though this month we had four out of forty families participating instead of last months three. I can't figure out why our co-op has such a small turn out for organized events. I thought that part of the reason people joined housing co-ops was for the community, but I guess they are really just busy people looking for cheap housing!
...had tea with my friend Julie.
...watched Matthew's Lacrosse practice.
...thought more about how much I love living in this city and thought even more about what it would be like to live in a similar city that is only a ferry ride away.
...and I won a contest that I forgot I entered! I won a box of children's books from Cadboro Bay Books. Lucky Me!
...hoped that winning this box of children's books would inspire me to become the world famous, slightly neurotic but rich and well loved children's book writer that I have always wanted to be.
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